29th

if you are a man, and you are coming out of a long term relationship, and you need a "substantial" rebound.... make sure it is with someone you can avoid when you go back to your relationship. if for some reason this proves impossible, then maybe you should do your rebound girl the courtesy of letting her know. instead of letting her just... see it. so she doesn't look at you nearly every day and tell you with her mean eyes "I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE NOT TELLING ME BECAUSE YOU ARE A COWARD AND A BABY... and i wish i had never slept next to you because now i'm thinking about it."

22nd

why does life revolve around people pressing their faces together?

20th

the two people who have combined forces to rob me of the confidence and security i carefully cultivated for 21 years and only really had on lockdown for about 6 months are being around each other in a manner that suggests they are fucking again. she is wearing this as a dress:

27th

no pictures but here's the thing:
bats
filet mignon, scallops, jameson.... not on our tab (four seasons)
the peacock
shots of patron on the job
oh and $200 for like 3 rounds for 10 people plus the shots elie and i love to do when it's all "they're dressed and my credit card is already in"
love not l.a.
tiny baby sings on oprah? and with celine dion. so small she's creepy.
taco bell
austin forevs
ross is a dreamboat, tk looks like jason lee.

13th

bein cute: ur doin it wrong





best website in the world: http://www.teacupspuppies.com/available%20puppies.htm

12th

i have a new motto: if you can't blog nice, don't blog anything at all.




also: http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1821028

7th

note to self:
stop being depressed and being a dickhead. i can't even hold my liquor. its embarrassing what an unhappy person i act like because i'm not really. this shit needs to get fixed and quick so it's a good thing i'll be salaried soon. get your shit together.

as a reward for this revelation i got the option of a vma afterparty. someday i'll go and i won't care about award shows anymore but i have no problems admitting that despite disdain for hollywood bullshit vmas make me such a sucker. so midwestern of me.

2nd

i was an interim replacement. i was a temporary stand-in.

i learned this when i saw you making her offers in front of not just me but others who have followed the story. the kind of humiliation i should be used to by now. this shit gnaws at my head when i am alone with it. hence why i try to avoid it as much as possible.

i no longer wish for you. that version doesn't even exist. what i wish for every time i get a chance to wish is for it to make sense or for someone to explain it to me so i understand what in the name of chase hot-ass crawford happened. it's all i want. and until it happens i can't move forward. i'll be right here.