11th

feeling stuck between mediocre and below average is tiring, and i want to get to a point where i can focus on the one thing i'm good at and have it be appreciated and have everyone else take care of the rest, or at least a point where i'm past caring (not really that second one). we all have a place and i refuse to believe i've found mine because i am neither comfortable or satisfied yet and i have so much more to do.

i just want to lose 15 pounds and live in brooklyn and tell people how to make books into movies and have a puggle/yorkie terrier.

and i'd like everyone in my life to be as unwavering as the friend i celebrated a 5th anniversary with yesterday, because if i have to be the way i am at least i get to have someone else to understand it.

i don't think that's too much to ask.

photo: pleasefindthis.blogspot.com

10th

"imma let you finish but..." this is adorable as fuck.

22nd

"isn't it weird how at one point you were like, 'wow, i'm going to have fun with this person for the rest of my life!' and then there turns out to be something completely wrong with them? like they do a bunch of shitty things because they're kind of insane and they ruin everything that could have been by being awful? i think it's so weird."


also, i want this dog more than i know how to explain:

8th

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rym6rGHAJg

so that's the video for "forever" with drake, lil wayne, kanye, and eminem. it is a mess. first of all, it's for lebron james' documentary more than a game so i guess the photos and home movie stuff is cute. however, it's cut with this crazy slick pop video type footage of all four rappers, who never appear on the screen at the same time, superimposed over themselves and dancing in front of giant sparklers. i mean does hype williams just sneeze on a piece of paper when he hands in treatments? (probably.) it opens with lebron playing online poker. is that some sort of metaphor? kanye is doing some kind of violent interpretive dance, he's clearly doing a breaststroke right before the 3-minute mark, and drake has clearly taken some tips from him. oh, sweet mushroom clouds, are those real or vfx? because either way they look fucking stupid. and eminem inexplicably has approximately 200 black men standing behind him. why does lil wayne call himself a martian? any clues?

that said, i kind of like the song. classic lines like "swimmin in the money, come and find me- nemo." eminem is against all odds a really good rapper. go figure. oh, and i would drake.

7th

i want these $500 pedro garcia shoes. is that bad?

6th

it's hard to talk about someone in your blog when you know that person reads it regularly. unless you're 14 years old and that's the intention. so all i will say is this:



like one purple sweater away, basically.

3rd

i have said several times that i want to be "leslie mann's character in every movie," that is, messy, overly emotional, being taken care of (knocked up, 17 again).


i have realized that i am zooey deschanel's character in many movies (gigantic, 500 days of summer), that is, scared, mean, fucking up perfect things.


but i don't know. maybe summer grows up to be scarlett. maybe happy grows up to be debbie.

i can not to save my life tell you why i felt i should share this with this thing i never use, but "samson" by regina spektor is a pretty heartbreaking song, so there is also that.

go fuck your bong.

19th

it's day 14 of the peach plum pear film shoot. the first feature i will have produced, for the rest of my life.

it's kind of like a relationship. the best and worst thing there is. dramatic, extreme, all the qualities that make any one thing completely worth it.

we will remember this forever, and in my memories, the good parts will overshadow the daily demons. i could expel from how full my heart is, for this movie, for these people that i want to know forever.

become a fan and follow our blog.

someday this fall, i will be the most proud i've ever been.

12th

here are 10 things i liked since the last time i posted, and one ongoing theme that i don't like:
1. the jimmy eat world clarity tour.
2. good hangs with demar, and craig and i trying to out-annoying each other constantly... plain white ts hangs in la, vegas, and la again.
3. having isabelle davis around for a week. so good for me, so necessary, love her so much.
4. starting the project of PPP.
5. incubus shoot. best production crew, smooth sailing, good shoot.
6. new new found glory.
7. 30 rock.
8. k-dubs and i keeping each other afloat, the usual.
9. the get up kids.
10. gin.



oops!

1st

i'd promise you anything for another shot at life.


dnw to go home.